It’s been several weeks since I’ve written in this blog. I admit I have been struggling with weight; my brain no longer wants to make the effort, especially after realizing that I am within just a couple pounds of the same weight I was at this time last year.

I know the answer, of course — don’t give up. Giving up only results in weight gain. So, I still keep enough on my eating plan to maintain, but I’m still carrying extra weight over and above my low, and after having received a steroid shot for pain management, that struggle is even tougher. My pain levels (from chronic arthritis) are much lower, which I greatly appreciate, but my appetite is through the roof.

Add to this — I am about to leave on vacation to an all-inclusive resort, which means unlimited food and drink. I am determined to enjoy my time while there… but the Monday after my return, I need to recommit myself to getting this weight off and actually following through with everything I know works. I haven’t been doing that. I’ve grown lax and have done my own fair share of thinking “this just isn’t fair”.

And it’s not fair that I have the issues I do when losing weight. I have to put in a colossal effort, and I know that my plight is misunderstood; even my closest friends have tried to convince me to do something easier than diet and exercise, but that’s the only thing that will lead to long-term success. I refuse to resort to methods that will not teach me how to live with a thinner, healthier body.

My target date for getting my head in the right place and giving this effort a fresh start is on the Monday after I return. I can do this.